Friday, March 14, 2008
Heartbroken! ♥
1:02 AM
Yesh!I've officially graduated from Temasek Poly!
Received my sms results ysday and not a single A at all.
But nvm, shall not harbour too much hope especially in my final year project cos i din really put in every effort tht i should put in either. All becos of...certain thing i guess.
=)
I just finished my school on the 18Feb and i've gotton a job and starting on 1st April!
Isn't it too fast? I haven really enjoy my holidays yet.
KL is my only relaxing days this holiday.
I enjoyed so much, having to shop without worrying anything in mind.
And of cos, the many surprises that i got. Really needa thank that someone who had made so much effort. =)
No choice, i'll have to really start work soon or else my sisters will be nagging away asking,
"Better faster look for job, in case economy downturn..etc"
"Oh find a job le then no need any sponsors for my 21st bday"
"Faster come out and work and help in family expenses"
Sigh! That is life isn't it?
This is only the beginning and the starting of parts and parcels of life.
Can't believe it that i will be stepping out to the society and work.
What will i be 5years down the road? Nobody knows and i'll really have to save up and achieve my goals in getting my Degree.
Plus, i must get my license asap if not i will not even save up for my studies in 2years time.
So envy my friends having a license so easily.Hopefully, i will not waste so much on it ba.
Should i celebrate or not celebrate for my upcoming 21st bday?
So many things happened and i dun really have the mood to plan at all.
Everyone is so worried for her.
6months ago was the operation.
And we thought everything would be fine after that hateful thing being operated away.
But..things are really not what we expected.
We tried so many ways, let her eat both western and chinese medicine but to no avail.
Initially i thot it wasn't that bad afterall. All of us think from a positive side and wanting to help her as much as we could.
But now, all we can do is to accompany her and see her as often as we could.
Grandma didn't know of her condition. She went to see her last sat and did not see much improvement in her.
Kept on asking how come she never eat and stuffs.
How are we going to reply her? We've got no choice but to keep her in the dark.
It pains my heart to see her getting thinner each day.
Couldn't imagine the jovial, loud, caring person turns out to be so pessimistic and quiet.
If she can be like last time, i really feel like giving her a real tight hug, telling her how much i appreciate her, telling her
"Thank u for taking care of me whenever i am sick"
"Thank u for cooking for me whenever i go her house after my school"
"Thank u for telling me the directions whenever i dunno which bus to take"
Perhaps everyone who have gone thru this stage will really treasure the person, especially our loved ones and appreciate every little things that they did for us.
To me, having a close family bonding is the greatest happiness in my life.
And i am really glad that i have my family to support me whenever i encounter any problem.
God really answers prayer? If this is true, please answer my prayer and i shall do whatever things that will help her. =,(
Anyway, i am really not sure whether to celebrate my bday.
Sigh! Headache..
Lots of birthdays to attend these few weeks.
Saturday and next Thursday having both 21st bday celebrations, meaning extra expenses and wednesday gonna meet my secondary girls.
Monday and Thursday having driving lesson.
So many things and i haven even enjoy enjoy enjoy at all!
This month is march and my decision is not fix yet.
How am i going to decide on certain things that i am totally confused of? =(
Sleeping soon..
Quite sleepy though..